if i had lived through war i would probably appreciate everything i have now, everything in front of me. life, seeing life, enjoying life.

i would love my friends to death and appreciate seeing them every day, and come through what i would understand the test of friendship better for then i would appreciate not seeing thier heads being blown up and see them suffer as casualties are constantly happening yet we don't know when.

but then when i reflect back, it's true, even now we don't know what's going to happen next in our daily life. some of us have routines that we follow but yet cause we're not stuck by constant horrors do we not realize the unexpected that may happen anytime, through the night, through the day.

the falter and setbacks which we face each day are such examples but we do not gamble on life. it's like a game where we may lose anytime, but even though we can't hit the restart button in our life, i guess when we fall back we can always pick ourselves up again and strive to continue for our best. sure, we won't know what happen next, but until then what is stopping from moving?

i would answer: nobody but ourselves.

so carry on, move on from the past. true we may see darkness instead of light, but until then, we don't know don't we? we're not some psychics which can predict the future.

a step is a way to sucess for then we don't know how.

do we bond with our friends and family only when realize the horrible truth of life, and we do shall we continue on this endless journey where we don't know when it would end for constantly everything is still moving. thus far, what have we learnt that bring us a better future. learning from the past do we then know how it lies and how things can be straighten then.

remember, you may see something before in the past which you thought may not happen ever again to you, but there will always be something related to that which we can apply to similar things in life now.

for then, we learn.